Ready for My Return

Only one more day and I will be back in Chile!! I can’t believe it. I’ve planned and I’ve worked and I’ve minimized (my apartment) and the day is finally here. I’m beyond excited. I’ve connected with the expat networks. I’ve sent out preliminary job search emails. My bags are packed and I’m ready to go . . . 😉

Words cannot properly describe what I’m feeling – a friend of mine put it best – I feel exhilarated and terrified all at the same time. I feel like I’m really living.

The process of minimizing and putting my life in storage (again, for what seems like the millionth time) made this point so very real. You know, when I did the math, I realized that my stuff had been in storage for much of the past 13 years. I have used and enjoyed my “things” for such short periods of time. It made me ruthless when I was going through things again – I gave away, threw away, attempted to sell more items than I ever have.

The overall effect was cathartic. For every item represents a different period in my life. Some good, some not so good – all learning experiences. As I found I could not part with my Polish pottery or my Italian and German leather shoes (right?), I also found that I could part with my flute (heavens how long have I had that!) and my diving gear (well, most of it – kept my super high speed fins and masks). As I realized how much the paintings and the photos and the letters still meant to me, I found that I had purchased WAY too many clothes in the name of retail therapy and that I could probably save thousands of dollars in the future simply by buying less.

I also found myself wanting to be free of furniture. My entire life, when all is said and done, will fit into a 5′ x 5′ storage unit and my car. I put everything in boxes or gave to others who might appreciate my things more.

The next chapter promises to be exciting. Since I have no idea what comes next, I will keep this blog post short. I will simply promise you what I have always promised – that I will share the good, the bad and the ugly. I do wonder if this is the right decision. Some days I wonder if I have lost my mind. Other days I know with every fiber of my being that this is the path I am supposed to be taking, right at this moment. I also know that there isn’t any other decision for me right now. I have to do this – whatever may come.

So with that, I leave you for now. 🙂 Next time I write, it will be from La Serena, Chile. One picture (from the last time I returned from Chile, so happy knowing that I would be back)IMG_5575

3 comments

  1. Beth, best of luck – as i’very said before, you will be a success in whatever you choose to pursue!

    Jim McCarthy

    • Sir,
      Thank you so much!!! I hope you are well and that the Pentagon is still humming along. I’m very excited for this next adventure. 🙂 Did you know that Viña del Mar is the Chilean Navy’s equivalent to San Diego and Newport combined? I felt right at home, meeting several naval officers during my stay. I can’t wait to return.
      V/R,
      Beth

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